haetae's journal

birthday

haetae — Mon, 25 Nov 2024 23:13:32 EST

it's my birthday today! i'm turning older two times each year because i technically have two ages... it's becoming harder to come to terms with this the older i get. orz

oh well! at least cake is eternal.

first post!

haetae — Mon, 25 Nov 2024 23:13:32 EST

i've remade my personal website again, this time with the sole purpose of creating profiles of my rp characters and maybe yap about my interests more.

i think my time on the internet has made me intensely private and introverted, so it's a little hard for me to really put myself out there both irl and digitally. there's just a lot that feels scary about the world, but i'd never be able to make any connections with people if i let my fears hold me back.

this is my attempt to share a part of myself, however small and trivial it may be.

nuzlocke

haetae — Mon, 25 Nov 2024 23:13:32 EST

i'm thinking about starting a nuzlocke run in the gs chronicle hack. i've always had a fond spot for johto ever since soulsilver came out - i remember the pokewalker and suicune encounter vividly. i just wish i was in a place to also get all the event pokemon, but i missed out on a lot of them.

in any case, i think gs chronicle would be a good start because one, it's a hack, two, it's johto, and three, i can (probably) make a little story out of it. apparently in the hack the story is slightly altered from soulsilver's and crystal's original, so that'll be fun to play around with.

i'm also toying around with the idea of starting a nuzlocke in pokemon platinum, since i've never played that game before and my second and most memorable pokemon game i've ever had was pokemon pearl. hmm, decisions decisions.

t log number ??1

haetae — Mon, 25 Nov 2024 23:13:32 EST

it's been about two - now almost three - years since i started testosterone. this past week, i went to go get my hormone levels checked, but without getting into a lot of details i hashed out some issues with my doctor and now *hopefully* everything should be sorted out. i just hate miscommunication between my doctor, insurance, and pharmacy. the fact that insurance is essentially a middleman makes it unnecessarily 10x more difficult for me to get meds.

i found it hilarious that the nurse who took my blood sample also played stardew valley and final fantasy xiv, and fps games otherwise. she told me she mained ninja in ffxiv at the moment and didn't like modding in stardew valley. which fair! updating mods and getting them all organized without a good mod manager is a goddamn hassle lmao.

tips for any trans dudes thinking about transitioning with hormones: note that injections are (usually) cheaper and more effective. you can also increase dosage, but it has to be slowly with your doctor's supervision and advice. you can't increase dosage while on gels, you just take them as is. this next tidbit is more US-oriented, but i've found that my state's medicaid covers gels for free. check your state and insurance to see if they cover them, because they're expensive otherwise.

please feel free to send me an email at xhaetae@proton.me if you have any questions. i'm not a doctor, but i've had some experience navigating transitioning and the systems surrounding the process.

minor updates

haetae — Thu, 12 Dec 2024 23:36:42 EST

it's been a while since i last touched this website and 11ty went thru some updates and i thought i could also do some renovations on my end too. i had a lot of trouble trying to redo the guestbook to make it cleaner in terms of scripting. it gets real mad if i try to introduce a new script file and i can't make it play nice with 11ty filters, so i'll just have to copy-paste some stuff to make it happy.

though what reminded me of this website and why i wanted to update again was because of this hilarious mssg i got (shout out to morpho)

i wanted to save this before i cleaned up my guestbook entries bcs i thought it was the funniest thing i've seen all month. ilu so much, i hope ur having a wonderful day LMAO

i've been back at the grind with webdev and coding stuff, making little games where i can. i also tried to make a pomodoro game, but fell short right as i got all the mechanics working bcs i couldn't make a functioning save/load system in godot without it crashing on me. it definitely taught me not to overlook an important feature from the beginning.

right now i'm working on a mini turn-based rpg, and hopefully it'll be less groan-inducing than the last project.